sadness strike

i am officially fat, and i really need to do something. =( help me.

i cried for you

you're beautiful so silently,
they never knew how much you meant to me,
ill cross the sea for a different world,

when I looked at you,
it struck me so violently,


though I learned from you,
that beauty need only be a whisper.

this life was not for you.

hari bahagia.

mama had been a really great lady. shes amzingly wonderful. i always wish to make her happy and to be like her in every ways. she is just so perfect the way she is. we fight and argue a lot, but that makes us love each other best. i love her a lot, however i dnt wish to talk too much like her heehee. we bought her a perfume tht cost rm165, beli guna duit baju tu wehhh. LOL. glad she liked it. so, happy mothers day ma. you're the best! =))

daddy bought me a new phone for my birthday yippie! phone lama boleh campak lombong. oops. :)today is a wonderful day. never been happier. i am not being materialistic but getting things from your parents do make you love them more. ha-ha. im not sure before if saya ada cakap about my bed yang patah disebabkan oleh seseorang yang berbadan gajah telah melompat-lompat diatas katil tersebut *giggles* and just now ayah ckp nak beli katil baru color white. yay! see? hari ini adalah hari yang sangat membahagiakan! =) im turning 22 soon, and tak ada apa-apa perubahan pun yang saya rasa pada diri saya sendiri. well, age is just a number kan and im very thankful to still be able to live and breath, alhamdulillah. I honestly hate the number 22. it makes me feel old. Walaubagaimanapun, saya sangatlah bersyukur kerana semakin hari saya semakin sihat dan membesar serta ,mengembang. gembira sangat. ha ye la tu bila nak start diet? hari- hari makan makanan yang mengandungi kolestrol yang sangat tinggi dan tadi baru sahaja menghabiskan 3 ketul cucur badak yang sungguh enak dan berminyak :S Doa saya pada hari jadi yang ke 22 ini adalah untuk menjadi orang yang lebih baik pada masa hadapan, dan juga memiliki badan yang sangat ramping seperti hanis zalikha LOL i damn love her body =)

walaupun hanya mendapat hadiah daripada ayah dan tidak drpada mama tp rasanya hadiah tu from ayah n mama share la kot tapi dari sara n naeim seperti biasa la tk mendapat apa2 haha. budak 2 org tu memang tau mintak duit je, tapi nasib baik sara memberi alasan yang kukuh iaitu beg duitnya baru hilang LOL. apa2 pun thank you. i love my family, sangat2. =') and my brother who is coming back to malaysia this end of may will bring lots of presents as well and itu mcm bday present jugak la. tak sabar nak tgk jam baru sbb jam lama sudah jatuh ke dalam jamban library sangat sedih bila ingat balik. *nanges*

to the best brother, chewahhhh nael kamil. thanks for being such a great brother. you've turned 21. you now hv the key to enter the real world MUAHAHAHA ok apa-apa je la. sara and naeim jgn jealous pulak. hari ni bday ame kasi la die rasa special sikit dia kan anak angkat. anyways, yes yes. youre damn old already. i cn still remember you kecik2 suka pakai songkok and ada tiny red mole ok itu keluarga je yg faham. but yaa now you've grown up turned into a handsome guy ( muntah muntah). youre a good brother and a good son, im happy to have you as my brother. love you alwaysss.

present? tunggu awak balik malaysia la kita pg pavilion. kamu tk pernah pg kan. LAME.

ngantuk bye!

what the duck

super duper addicted yaww :DDD

thanks awin for posting this song to your blog :)

plain me

i have big ass.
i have flabby tummy.
i have jiggly arms and thighs.
i hvnt take my bath yet today.
i hvnt go to any party for quite sometime.
i have money issues. im broke.
i hvnt go jogging for a week.
my hair is getting all messy nowadays.
i dont have friends, period!
im good in doing the chores.
im one lazy monkey and i wish i can be rich someday.
i love music, a lot.
i think i weight more than 60kgs.
i spend though i have no money.
i envy lots of people.
i have low self esteem.
i can be very annoying and unpatient especially when things didnt go my way.
i love food especially fast food that explains why im getting fatter every hour.
i hate "some" busybody people who loves to talk about me and think they're the only good people in this world.
i am never satisfied with what i have.
i want to change but i never work to change whatever i want to change (?)
i love arts, paintings, ID, photography.
im planning to move to california at the age of 35 and live there till i die.
i have ugly skin.
i cant seem to get over someone though i found out he already has a gf and i hate that i feel like punching myself.
i used to be a TV freak i watched everything on tv, followed every series of story but now i dont. i feel like a total loser coz i knw nothing whts on now.
ive been bitten by the bed bug.

gtg.

gugu gaga

top 8 guys on my list. LOL

8.christiano ronaldo

7.adam brody

6.orlando bloom

5.park yong ha

4.daniel wu

3.sam of bunkface


2.vj Utt


1.the smelly,ok this is mine, :p

3 words.

wonderful song =)

why you should love your brother =)

pretty simple i know, but enough for presents frm the states, i love you nael kamil hihi its not easy to make your brother buy you lots of stuff like this you know. buy me more stuff in the future yaa and ill love you more ;)


i cant wait for JUNE. *giggles*

take a tour

One of my favorite things to do lately is spread the gospel about music LOL. I really aint got nothing to do these days, ive been eating like crazy. T_T That is what im good at, so what the hell can i do, anywaysss, i am currently so into Cursive & Lisa Hannigan (which is a bit bizarre)

this amazing band called Asteroids Galaxy Tour. I was introduced to them by gossip girl series. I heard this song in one of the episode which i cn remember so ive been searching the net for the song and the band. and its all worth it. she is amazingly adorable and She’s like a young Kate Moss with a voice from outerspace and has no inhibitions, which i love about any woman on stage. Their another great song i love is hero. damn they're so addictive. grr

heres a little heart for you.

I need someone to take,
A little of the weight,
Or I'll fall through.
You're just the one that i've been waiting for,
I'll give you all that i have to give and more,
But don't let me fall.

-lenka,dont let me fall.

what a omfg grrrreat song! i think she looks a bit like michael jackson, yes? LOL

whtever i just love lenka. and her music. yay!

plans for the holiday.

a long holiday can be very boring so ive made some plans for myself.

1. engaged my self to a gym i planned to loose 15kgs. and get back in shape in 2 months =S
2. save money.
3. jual baju banyak2.
4.work to get more money for to pay my fees.
5. hairdoo
6. buy a new phone
7. go for a holiday :D
8. buy a camera

ill list more plans when i think of another things later. im damn sleepy, and i cnt get this song jangan lepas by Alexa outta my head. darn.

an inspiration.

this is how i plan my new room might be, and i wish it would come true :) it doesnt have to be exactly the same, but just a little bit of all the pictures i posted below. Now i really need to save lots of money. (Get a job, tasha!) anyways, talking about my room, ive also planned how my future house gonna look like. well, i am a dreamer. :) i got the photos link from dini's blog btw.

^_^

photos from hotel fox

heal the world

hello girlfriend

If you've been a big bully to our planet earth, it's time to change. What can you do? How about RECYCLING? Besides the usual paper, plastic and cans, you might be forgetting to reuse ONE important thing. Don't forget to SHOP green whether it's for you or for a GIFT. anyways, how was your EARTH HOUR day? yaa i knw its a bit too late, but its great to know that lots of people actually supported it. clap clap for yourself!

Now everybody seems to forget about the mother nature thing already. do you think saving the energy is just enough by doing it for one day? big NO NO. the media, tv and radio no longer talks about saving the mother nature as much as during the earth hour campaign. This campaign should be going on until now, people need an everyday reminder. we're human, we forget. its normal. go green now ppl, save mother nature. at least start by reading the "do not litter" signs at your drinks can. and of course, do it. and i think there should be more recycle bin and dustbin provided, sekarang ni nak cari tong sampah pun susah.

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I have been so mean to myself. I ate a lot and after few months now im regretting it. hey i gain 7 kgs omg. 2 weeks of holidays, time to get back on the treadmill, did i spell it right? -___- wish me luck.

sorting things out

Ive been very dull and boring. Everyday doing and thinking about the same thing. Really need the momentum to work out on my duties. There're so many things in mind, It's so hard for me to stay focus. Not that I don't want to, but i always choose to be ignorant. I miss December. I was being the real me during that time, wheres that "me" gone to?

when your man falls into this category

People say in order to write good, we must write things we know. So this is what i know, this is what i've been through and i learn from it and hoping i wont be doing it again,

Im turning 22 real soon, im happy however it scare me in some ways. Especially when I hvnt achieve anything to be proud of in life. 21 years passed like a wind. sigh. Im still no good in making decisions, always made the wrong one, always regret in the end. in short my life is always full of regrets..? Im lucky to love and to be loved by someone but im damn unlucky for loving that particular someone more than i love myself, especially when that someone is 'someone' who doesnt appreciates and deserves you. Ok, I am not saying that I deserve better but is being commited to a relationship and expecting your partner to do the same way, is that too much?

Its hard when you're in a relationship that ecpects you to be prepare of new drastic changes all the time.Its hard, believe me. Theres always a point when things have to change, theres always a moment when I have to be afraid of losing something I dont know. Its a dilemma, its a cycle. Its hard to be someone who always have to support other people when I am not even able to support myself. I am weak, and I wish to escape or just run rather than having to face it, again. But i am scared, and again, I am weak and i hate that. Then only I realize that LOVE is just not enough. You need commitment. You need focus. You need to be serious. Especially when you have a girlfriend like ME to be precise. I am very particular about my future. Marriage is a long term planning. You dont just get married and divorce after only one month tying the knot do you? I want my partner to be my partner till my last breath. Ok that sounds so corny and lame but whatever, I dont care. This is my blog so I dont care. I just dont care, okay thats annoying.

It is not easy to make plans with someone who'll always change their minds. Tell me exactly should I really put up with his laziness and lack of drive? The more he is indulges with his laziness, the more i am forced to be the grown up in the relationship. Whats the point of having a so called many many years of relationship if the women who're the one who have to doo all the works? Its tiring you know, its tiring to make sure the relationship keeps moving forward when you always stuck at one level without having the feeling to move forward. See, now I dont understand what Im talking about but I still love you ass hole and thats hurt me a fcking lot. I do enjoy taking on the role of organiser and provider because it makes me feel independant and strong but only for a while not for the entire 20years of relationship. -_-"

stop giving escuses, stop running from your problems, stop losing your temper on me, and start something that you yourself can be proud of. It isnt too much is it? ok it sounds a lot >.< but why notttt? Now you know that Ive known you very well and how i can read minds!

Relationship may look beautiful at the surface but who knows whats inside? Love can be soooooo difficult but why people still need it? ill came out with a theory once im done with my degree.

tasha
22. happily dating. loving it.?

hidup yang penuh dengan teka teki

i am officially ______________.

kalau dalam exam, keluar soalan fill in the blanks tu yang paling best kan. haa so isi la tempat kosong tu. seronok jugak kadang-kadang bila ada banyak pilihan dalam hidup ni. penat lah, kalau ashik terperangkap dalam situasi yang mengelirukan. cubalah bagi peluang untuk aku bernafas dengan senang, tersenyum dengan riang. kau ni memang tak boleh tengok aku senang, sentiasa nak aku susah hati. sebenarnya i dont have much time, but ill post more after ive done with finals. banyak benda nak tulis, banyak benda yang perlu dikeluarkan dari kepala otak yang serabut. banyak benda nak cerita. nak dengar cerita? tunggu la k. pening la. mana minyak cap kapak ni. haih

secret lover

he is so adorable. *melting*

you know who, =)

dreams

its 4.43 in the morning, dah try tido but tak boleh pulak darn.i was thinking about my plans to change course. yeah i knw its a bit too late, but i knw i cn do better if i switch course. hmmm entahlah, macam2 lah kau ni tasha. so if i change course ill be wasting 2 years and have to extend lg few years maybe. but to me, better do smthing we like dari bersusah payah buat smthing yang kita tak suka right. so, since i have two more papers , im gonna do really well, and naikkan pointer yang atas2 pagar tu he he he :b so... apa lagi wish la me luck ape la korang. -___-

final mode.

pejam celik pejam celik, dah nak masuk 3rd year dah. eventually im not taking the short semester due to some reasons. so nampaknya kena la extend lagi beberapa tahun haha. i have 2 more papers to go, on the 13th and 14th. sob sob. malas la nak study. macam tak percaya je dah 2 tahun in gombak tapi belum major lagi agagaga. I love uia so i dont mind NOT!

boring lah, nak tido tapi tak ngantuk. rindu najmi. esok im gonna go buy baju for luminous yippi yay yay! suka suka. wht type of baju should i bring in this time? hmmmmmm.

oh btw, i was browsing throung forever 21 website and i found this!




love it. im gonna look for smthing similar tomorrow ok tak.
ok im gonna try to go to sleep to get some inspiration.hehe im just being annoying. ilove sleeping, good activity.bye.

i love Ana's camera :b

dah la pakai baju sekolah. rindu sekolah. lol